Lost..

There's this feeling, a feeling i don't usually get.The feel of spinning in the air while lying down on my bed. The feel of my heart dropping like when I'm on a rollercoaster ride. I don't get this feeling often but after what she told me just now, it just came.Suddenly everything seems so different, so awkward, so..weird. I've never thought it could be this way. I never thought this will all come eventually.Feeling so lost in the middle of the night with a cigarette in hand and my mind so slow, thinking what to actually say. I thought it'll all be ok. It'll all go back to the way it was. At least the way its meant to be. There's so many things to be said but the words just wont form a sentence.I'm so lost..

Sniffing..

The choice of a person falling in love with another person is their own decision. The choice of courting another person's girlfriend is also their own decision. But then whether the girl falls in love with you or interested in you is the girl's choice. So why would you continue courting the girl if you know you're not going to get her and in the end accusing the girl of so many things and being all pissed when the girl refuses to be your girlfriend? She's someone else's girl..You took your chances knowing that it wont happen and who knows, will NEVER EVER HAPPEN. Here's a saying for you, If you want to court my girl, go ahead. If you can court her away then you can have her. But if YOU CAN'T, please with all do respect GET LOST.

Currently listening to: One Republic Good Life

Comeback

I know I have not been blogging for quite some time..

But then suddenly I had the urge to blog once more.

There's just so MANY things lingering in my head right now..

Too much to be described in one single moment..

LOve

To think back on the past, this page of the book of life that we wrote on together on what had happened between us, there's so much fun and laughter. As most people says, all happiness must come to an end. But why? Why so soon? Its just the begining of a new page, a new chapter. It should not had ended so soon. The chapter isn't finished yet. This seed of love once had been infix into the bed of soil had flourished into a beatiful tree but before it had fully grown to the peak, it has to be amputated. Should I say I knew it from the start that this might happen, but I never wanted it to come true? Perhaps. Its not easy to make a relationship work but by giving and taking each other's advantages and flaws it can work. It really does. But the fact is the one person who I gave my heart to had just turned around and let it fall. Why must it always be this way?I myself have no idea but to grief the pain in this hollow serenity. Is this called karma? Maybe, maybe not. You might had a long thought about this relationship but you cant jump into the conclusion right away. Did scientist made space rockets just like that? NO! They did ton and tons of research and experiment to make it into a success.

Currently Listening to:

S.H.E - Wo Men Zen Me Le

devil's cry

looking at the moving grey clouds reminds me of something in the past..something that i wouldn't want to let it repeat but the devil's cries in me makes me irresistably wanting it to happen again..like beethoven's ode to joy, it ends with a BANG. and so therefore..it shall end with a bang..

just for you..

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
i have 5 fingers,
The middle 1 is for you.
Buttercups are yellow,
Morning glory are purple,
You came like a breath of fresh air,
You left without saying goodbye..

the confession..

OMG i've finally confessed to her that i actually like her..

it wasn't the best thing to do for the moment but she forced me..

she tought it was another person but then now she know..

and yes i already know who had sabotage me with those bukit tinggi pictures..

it was her ex boyfriend..jeez..here's the funny thing..he was the one who wanted to broke up..

and now he's the one messing everything up..watch out sir sensitive..i'll get you..

but then now i feel glad that now she knew and i wont have a bad time thinking on how to approach her.. :) good night..

the bar incident..

hmm..its been a while since i had actually allocate time for my blog..

so yea..i had been drinking non stop ever since christmas eve..

seriously..i dont know why..

went to my uncle's pub at bukit tinggi..

its the one in klang not pahang incase you mistaken it..

and so..there's this bar girl called ivy who served us the other day..

there were 5 of us and suprisingly..we ordered 10 buckets of beer..

gosh..damn insane right? i know..

i so happen to take control of her had fun the whole night..

hehe..but then never underestimate these bar girls..

when they're drunk..they're all yours to take but it takes quite a while..

when i say quite a while means..3 hours of non stop drinking to collapse her..haha..

we literally came the next day and ivy wasn't here..

so another girl served us..another 2 actually..

1 is called ayu and the 1 serving me is called rina..

we had 1 each..way better than new year's eve..hehe..

had lot of fun..and somebody had been a naughty boy..u know who you are..haha..

we weren't planning to drink much so we just opened 3 buckets..

chit chat all d way till 1 and we left for home..

i didn't actually enjoyed my time at the pub last night..

i think its considered my fault..but who cares anyway..

so i called ivy up and told her i was coming incase she's not working or what so ever..

but she was indeed working last night..oh crap..

she brought over 3 buckets and sat down next to me..

and i don't really have to elaborate the rest..

then we she left..rina came to me..i feel much more comfortable with rina..

reason?hmm..she pretty much have a better body than ivy..

she's more into me plus her voice is way better than ivy's..

ivy sounded like those witches in hong kong dramas..creepy..

well..that ivy was missing from my table long enough for me to be there..

so of course i would go for rina as she accompanied me most of the time..

and then ivy would come right over and pinch me, bite me and etc..

and rina will stand up and walk off..jeez..give me a break..

she's been doing that all night whenever i am with rina..

after realising the situation..i have decided to pull myself away from ivy..

she's is 1 damn unpredictable person..very hard to manage indeed..

the next time im going there..im calling rina..

thanks to ivy..i had a bad time there last night..

Currently Listening To: Lady Gaga

Bad Romance

Langkawi Day 1

ahh..the langkawi trip..one of the most memorable trip during my 1 month pathetic college break..the whole day was a rush..we had the college's open day during the day time and after that me and wee lee need to rush to pudu bus station to get his tickets and then rush back to my crib because careless me forgot tobring my wallet out..geez..after that we rushed to the ktm to catch the train to kl station..we reached pudu exactly at 11pm..our bus was also suppose to depart at 11pm..luckily we made it in time..ahh..finally manage to catch my breath..we left pudu at 11.15pm and reached kuala perlis's jetty at 5.30am..

early morning action..

at the jetty getting our ferry tickets

vincent caught bribing gan with cigarettes.. :P

we all waited for the counter to open..

since the ticket counter opens at 7am..we went to the nearby shop for some breakfast..there's 2 shops there..1 with people and the other one with no customers at all..since the first shop was so arrogant, we went to the shop next door..

after buying our tickets we went to the ferry..the journey from kuala perlis to langkawi was 1 hour..damn it was a long and tiring journey..

everybody seems so eager to get in the ferry..

in you go people..

langkawi's jetty

the icon of langkawi..

inside of langkawi's jetty shopping mall

after exiting the jetty, we went to the car rental and rented 2 minivans, the nissan vanette..we drove all the way to our hotel in Pantai Cenang..then we went for breakfast at the Breakfast Bar..the place was cozy but kinda pricy as well..honestly..the food there was superbly terrible..

our arrival at Pantai Cenang

waiting for everyone to get ready..

our breakfast spot..the breakfast bar..

khy, tiru and zariq..

it is exactly like a bar in the inside..the only difference is they serve breakfast here..

everybody having their not so appetizing breakfast..

everybody wondering what to order..

after breakfast we headed down to the beach while waiting for our rooms to be ready for check in.. we played beach soccer, cam whored and enjoyed the sea til 1.30pm..

team guna..

team tham..

i don't know why the heck they kick the ball way up so high..

group picture..im not sure who is missing from this picture though..there were 19 of us..

cam whoring with wong at the back..such a busy body fellow..haha..

enjoying the water and sun..

geralyn, khy, edwin, lady boy, adrian and ben

taking a dip in the sea feels real good.. :)

at 1.30pm, we went to our hotel..its called Landcons Hotel..it is directly opposite The Zon and The Underwater World Langkawi..after checking in, we went for lunch and then we hit the beach again..this time we went hermit crab hunting..gaha..me, zariq, gan and celine went for a jetski ride where else geralyn and edwin went for parayailing..before going to the beach, we went to The Zon and got ourselves a beer each..damn it was refreshing..an ice cold beer on a sunny day..plus its cheap..

Landcons Hotel..

they really enjoyed sunbathing.. :)

geralyn and edwin up there.. :)

waiting for the bloody lift..it can only fit 5 person..oh crap..

ben, pee khung, lady boy, adrian and 96

then we went up to clean ourselves and get some rest..at night we went to Artisans Cafe for pizza..celes recomend that place to us because she had been here for her last intership..the food was nice though the place only have few tables..after dinner we went to survey for beer prices nearby and got ourselves a carton of Carlsberg Special Brew and a carton of Heineken..then we went back to the hotel to drink and play games..

at artisans cafe

everybody was wondering what pizza to order..

ryan took a picture of us..while he was on the phone with melissa..hehe..

order please?

here we are..camwhores..haha..

waiting outside for our beer..

me with the whole carton of heineken..heineken rules baby..haha..

tiru a.k.a uncle g with the carlsberg..

here we are..everyone drinking and gambling..

the dice players..kids these days will do anything to gamble..haha..

well..after the whole tiring day..we all went back to our rooms for a good night sleep..and boy did everyone slept well..my roommates were snooring like aeroplane turbines..gosh..imagine sleeping at 2am and got woken up at 4am due to the noise..after a smoke with gary we forced ourselves to sleep.. :)

Currently Listening To: The Gossip

Standing In The Way Of Control

gosh..

gosh..its been quite sumtime since i last updated my blog..suddenly something rang my bell today which makes me feel like blogging today..its christmas..n how did i celebrated?family dinner?parties?outing with friends?wrong..i celebrated christmas with my laptop the whole day..facebook-ing the whole day..boring?indeed..just feel like putting a bullet in my head..at least there the adrenaline rush which makes me wonder whether to pull the trigger or not..but sadly..its hard to purchase a gun in malaysia..anyway..im having my holidays now..around a month before college resumes..god..what am i gonna do till then?might rot at home..somebody please save me from this misery boredom..

Currently Listening to: Westlife

My Love